Another Day

Another Day

Live another day
Climb a little higher
Find another reason to stay
Ashes in your hands
Mercy in your eyes
If you're searching for a silent
sky...

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So die another day

The coldness of this words
The message in his silence,
"Face the candle to the
wind..."
This distance in my voice
Isn't leaving you a choice
So if you're looking for a time
to run away...

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So try another day

They took pictures of our
dreams
Ran to hide behind the stairs
And said maybe when it's right
for you, they'll fall
But if they don't come down
Resist the need to pull them in
And throw them away
Better to save the mystery
Than surrender to the secret

You won't find it here
Look another way
You won't find it here
So try another day

Mirror, Mirror so glad to see you again. It’s been awhile. Time flies. I was about to write this blog on Sunday, but it just wasn’t flowing so I erased what I wrote. Then I got busy and here I am. We have our first ballad today. It is a very emotional song with a very memorable main riff and sweet sax parts. I thoroughly enjoy this song. It is Dream Theater after all. These lyrics are kind of emotional. It is about John Petrucci’s father who was dying of cancer. Petrucci is encouraging his father to push through and not give up; to not lose to will because of the great pain. This is a sad song, but there is a little hope inside it. In a few albums we will reach a song written about his death. When we get there, it might be interesting to compare and contrast these songs. Oh yeah! So I got something a little different for you all, but first let me enlighten you to my life.

So this week I have been studying as usual and saw some rad stuff. Last Sunday (I guess two Sundays ago now), I went to a circumcision ceremony, which was a definite cultural experience. It was interesting to actually see the sign of the Old Covenant done. I feel bad for proselytes to Judaism that are circumcised later in life. O, the pain. On Wednesday, I went on a field trip to the land that belonged to the tribe of Benjamin. The tribe of Benjamin lies in and around what is today called the West Bank, which is Arab territory. Some places in the West Bank are not safe to go to. It is crazy to think how close enemies live next to each other. Arabs and Israelis that hate each other live within miles of each other (not that all Arabs and Jews hate each other). Crazy. On this trip, I saw the site where the walls of Jericho came tumbling down. It was awesome. But, most importantly, on this trip, I had the highlight of my life. I got to ride a camel. It was awesome. Then on Saturday, I went to Ashkelon Beach and spent the night there. It was awesome. The water was a beautiful temperature. I got stung by a jelly though. That sucked. At the beach, I had like the best meal since I have been in Israel. Amazing chicken, watermelon, hotdogs, pita, carrots and ranch, choc. chip cookies, brownies, and awesome beverages. Oh yeah. I also spent the night there. It was my first time sleeping on the beach. It was really enjoyable, except for the fact that we woke up to a rain that became rather heavy. It came and went quick though.

So in my Modern Israel class on Thursday, we talked about the Holocaust and the ideology that led to it. It was a pretty emotional class, especially since it was taught by a Jewish person. It is crazy to think that 6 million Jews were killed only less than 70 years ago. I was inspired by that lecture to write a poem about the Holocaust from the point of view of the Nazis. It is like the anti-thesis of “Another Day.” Instead of pleading with someone to hold on, one is forcing another to let go. I hope that through this poem we can understand this atrocity even more and understand and the danger of not believing that all human beings are equally created in God’s image. God is our only hope among these horrible tragedies. Here I go.

Involuntary Suicide

Today is the day of your suicide

Close your eyes

So void of life

Take the knife

Lodge it inside

Today is the day that you die

Today is the day that we purify

Open your eyes

Sanctify

Wretched disgusting putrid mice

All must die

Biological mistake

Sociological disgrace

Deserving objects of Hate

Doomed by the winds of fate

Evacuate Eradicate Terminate

You say you want to die another day

That you have a reason to stay

No, for today we will rid the plague

Enter in, Enter in—Bad blood will fade

Remember, we are the gods of perfection

O, the unpardonable sin of imperfection

This is no lie--Messiah won’t hear your cry

You will die-- Tears of joy we will cry

Step inside, step inside—Believe the lie

Step inside, step inside—Silence your pitiful cry

You masquerade as a victim-- Unwilling to die

You masquerade as a victim—O, God why! O God why!

Remember this is your suicide

Slashing your wrists with the razorblade called life

Drowning yourself in your inferior blood

Good bye Disease—Look me in the eye

Good bye Disease—Drown in your suicide.

Pull Me Under

Pull Me Under

Lost in the sky
Clouds roll by and I roll with them
Arrows fly
Seas increase and then fall again

This world is spinning around me
This world is spinning without me
Every day sends future to past
Every breath leaves me one less to my last

Watch the sparrow falling
Gives new meaning to it all
If not today nor yet tomorrow then some other day

I'll take seven lives for one
And then my only father's son
As sure as I did ever love him
I am not afraid

This world is spinning around me
The whole world keeps spinning around me
All life is future to past
Every breath leaves me one less to my last

Pull me under, pull me under
Pull me under, I'm not afraid
All that I feel is honor and spite
All I can do is set it right

Dust fills my eyes
Clouds roll by and I roll with them
Centuries cry
Orders fly and I fall again

This world is spinning inside me
The whole world is spinning inside me
Every day sends future to past
Every step brings me closer to my last

Pull me under, pull me under
Pull me under, I'm not afraid
Living my life too much in the sun
Only until your will is done

Pull me under, pull me under
Pull me under, I'm not afraid
All that I feel is honor and spite
All I can do is set it right

Pull me under, pull me under
Pull me under, I'm not afraid
Living my life too much in the sun
Only until your will is done

Oh that this too, too solid flesh would melt

Shalom my friends. Today is an exciting day. We get to explore Dream Theater’s biggest hit—Pull Me Under. This song was their only commercial success. It got much radio play and was pretty well known. This is the song that got me into Dream Theater. It is definitely not my favorite song but it is amazing and has a special place in my heart. So my bro is a guitar and bass player and is pretty dang good at it. One day he was practicing bass in his room and he was playing a song that I thoroughly enjoyed. So I enquired within. I asked him if it was Metallica (I am ashamed of that now since they sound NOTHING like Metallica and are on a completely different level of awesomeness to Metallica). He said no it is Dream Theater (proof that he is a baller. The bass to this song is pretty intense). This encounter was the seed of an obsession—of my discovery of the best band ever. Oh yeah! I hope my blog will play a similar role in some of your lives. So, I am told that this song is based on Hamlet (I would love if someone familiar with Hamlet would show me parallels. I hear the last line of the song is a direct quote). A definite theme of this song is the rapid passing of time and the imminence and abruptness of death. The lyrics are so beautiful and poetic.

So today I had church. It was awesome. The message was on adultery again. The text was Proverbs 7. The preacher focused on the seduction of the temptress. I already blogged on this so I won’t again. I then went to the Old City. First, I saw the Garden Tomb, which is a proposed site of Jesus’ death and resurrection (the Church of the Holy Sepulcher is a better candidate though). Then I went shopping. I got an amazing full-length red and gold tunic. It is legit! The only bad thing is it is Muslim garb so I can’t really wear it in public lest I offend someone. Sad day. But I will sport it in the states! Oh yeah!

So if you ever visit the Old City, you will notice there are tons of people (like any big city). They are everywhere. There are people from all over the world; people with tons of different beliefs and personalities. These people all have one thing in common, though. They all will die. Every step they take is a dying step. Every breath they take is a dying breath. There are no immortals in the Old City. There are no immortals in the world. So many people live like they are immortal, though. O, how deceived we are! Rush puts it so well in their song Dreamline, “We are young, wandering the face of the earth, wondering what our dreams might be worth, learning that we’re only immortal for a limited time.” We go through life enchanted by the joy of youth. We live carefree lives that we think will last forever, then we are faced with reality. We face tragedy and we are forced to stare death in the face—and live.

I realized my mortality in October of 2007. I was driving with my friend, Nash. We were heading to our Homecoming dance. I was driving on the freeway in the slow lane, then all of a sudden I notice a big rig was coming into my lane. I swerved to try to avoid him. I lost control. My vehicle started spinning. I spun across the freeway and slammed into the center divider. I then kept spinning and somehow ended up on the right-hand shoulder of the freeway. I spun across a four-lane freeway (the 10 freeway in Yucaipa, CA) twice and survived with only a broken nose. It is a miracle. I should not be alive today. It was like 7:00 P.M. on a Saturday night on a fairly busy freeway. It is not often that the freeway is clear, but by God’s grace it was. If I had collided with another vehicle it probably would have all been over. I would not be here today. But God did not want me to die yet. God still had life in store for me

Before this, I walked through life saying that we are not guaranteed a tomorrow and could die suddenly but I did not believe it. This dance with death made me believe it. I was faced with the imminence and abruptness of death. I was faced with the fleeting character of life. I can’t live as if I am immortal; life is precious. Time is precious. I can’t waste my life. I must seize the day. I must live my life ready to die because I cannot truly live if I do not understand the finite character of life. One can’t truly live until he understands death. Even now I sometimes forget the imminence of death. I must dwell on this fateful event often so I do not waste my life.

My friends, I entreat you, live, being ready to die because living life not understanding and expecting death is dangerous. It leads to regret and great pain for yourself and others.

Look carefully then how you walk,

Not as unwise but as wise,

Making the best use of the time

Because the days are evil

Ephesians 5: 15,16

Only A Matter Of Time

Only A Matter of Time

A suited man smiled said:
"It's just a matter of time
You can have the world at your feet by tomorrow
just sign on this line."
Hold tight... limelight!
Approaching the paramount
with the sun in our eyes
fearing family ties, legalies, compromise

In a dimly lit room with a stool as his stage
a dream-stricken prince of a pauper's descent
haunts the eavesdropping silence
that presses his window
as he sweats a performance
to an audience that ticks on the walls

To the practical observer
It's just a matter of time
"You can deviate from the commonplace
only to fall back in line."
I understand mine's a risky plan
and your system can't miss
But is security after all a cause
or symptom of happiness?

Brave, yet afraid, his eyes on horizon
in a steady-set gaze
a mariner soon from an open cocoon
takes a moment to summon his courage
to stifle his grave apprehension and
trembling, approaches the surf

A father's benediction as his hopeful son departs
to brave the sea of rage and conquer at all costs
lingers in his memory
and visions still surviving in a logic-proof shell
that should have been held sacred, safe and hidden well
are compromised in usury
with every rising sun that yields no sight of land
the hesitation cultivates within the tired man
and rumors spread of mutiny
and though the time will come when dream and day unite
tonight the only consolation causing him to fight
is fearless faith in destiny

Even when plan fall to pieces
I can still find the courage
with promise I've found in my faith

Likely or not, it's a dream that we keep
and at odds with our senses we'll climb
But if faith is the answer, we've already reached it
And if spirit's a sign
then it's only a matter of time
only a matter of time

Hello friends. We have reached our first landmark in our journey. We have reached the last song of When Dream and Day Unite. We will conclude the first leg of our journey and jump into another more magical leg tomorrow. Only A Matter of Time is a beautiful ending to the first CD. It is simply excellent with great uplifting lyrics. I believe this song is about the reward of taking chances. Though there is always the chance of failure, risk taking is worth it and will pay off. Having a dream and chasing after it no matter what the odds is fulfilling. I heard that this song is about Dream Theater’s beginning and their desire to succeed but their fear of failure. I don’t know if it is true. Sounds good though. This song makes it clear that belief is an important part to success in a venture. Your heart must be with your venture for it to be truly successful.

So today I had some class plus some informal Greek study with a Master’s college alumni who lives at the same place as me. I am very excited to be studying Greek this semester. I love studying Greek plus I will be able to jump into second semester intermediate Greek next semester. Oh yeah! Then this evening we had chapel. It was good. The speaker gave a very uplifting message from Isaiah 40 concerning the power of God and how he bestows it on those who wait for Him. One of the verses he covered (verse 310 says, “but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”

O, what a beautiful verse. Life is exhausting and sucks sometimes, but God is there for us and gives supernatural strength to those who rely on Him and wait for His help no matter how hard life gets. He gives us strength to flourish and live life to the fullest. So what is the key to having supernatural strength from God? Faith. We must believe that God is faithful and will actually give us strength. We must believe that the pain, delayed gratification, sorrow, and waiting are worth it. We must be willing to endure pain and seeming failure. We must have our eyes set on the prize. We must remember that “the time will come when dream and day unite” but until then we must keep on fighting because of our “fearless faith in destiny.”

Our dreams and reality seem so far apart at times, though. The promises of God and reality seem so disconnected. We are unhappy. We are tired. We feel abandoned. We feel unloved. We feel lonely. We feel like we serve an unfaithful God. We feel like we serve a God who lies. We feel like we just believe a cute fairy tale to get us through life. We feel like God is an unreal figment of our imagination. Our beliefs seem so foreign to reality. O, but there will be a day when our faith will become sight! Our doubts will be dissolved. Our pain will be healed. Our loneliness will be filled. Our souls will be perfectly satisfied. O, I can’t wait for that day. But remember, eternity is not the only time that Dream and Day will Unite. God is faithful in this life also. He will love us, cure our doubts, keep us, and give us strength to go on. He will bless us with the abundant life. Just wait. It is Only A Matter of Time.

The One Who Helps To Set The Sun

The One Who Helps To Set The Sun

Watching my window I was led like a child
As the roadway lamplights
Misguided my mind through the night
A shadow of limits
We were racing the rain
My hands held the wheel
My eyes tried to hold their place

There must have been a time
When I thought that you were watching
It had to be when my senses lost control
I thought I'd slipped away
I thought I could still feel us moving
It must have been a cloud
No bigger than a man's hand

Every reason I risk my life
To come back to you
Is locked behind your door
You're my immunity
Outside I watched you burn
Heavy hearts were bleeding
A cry for help, a familiar voice
My melting hands streaked the glass

As I walked away
I wondered what had really happened
Had I run out of time
Did I push myself too far
As my last step fell
I felt my hands upon the wheel
Had I come back to life
Or did I ever leave at all

In higher lives
We seem to be
Always a moment too late
We're past the time
When we looked on
Now we're
THE ONES WHO HELP TO SET THE SUN

This time for real
I locked the door behind me
My mind was still a wreck
From what I saw
For when my hands are still
I'll recognize the message
Never again will my senses lose control

In higher lives
We seem to be
Always a moment too late
We're past the time
When we looked on
Now we're
THE ONES WHO HELPS TO SET THE SUN

Hello everybody. We have another gem of a song to intoxicate ourselves with today. The One Who Helps To Set The Sun has a very emotional and beautiful intro. Plus, some thought-provoking lyrics. This song is about a person who is driving late at night and is about to fall asleep. He momentarily shifts into a dream where he sees how his loved ones would be affected by his death. He then snaps back into reality and gets his act together. (In case you were wondering I get most of my interpretations from songmeanings.net) This song shows us that our actions affect more than just ourselves. Our actions affect those who are around us.
So today has been a day of class and studying. It has not been too eventful. But let’s talk. This song forces us to think of the earthly consequences of our death. It causes us to think about what would life be like without me? Would it really matter if I die? Is my life worth anything? Would anyone care if I die? As I said in my last blog, I think much about the eternal state after death, but I don’t think much about the physical state people leave behind when we die. In answering these questions, it is very helpful to look at the effect the death of a loved one had on you.
My Grandpa died about 4 ½ years ago. He is the one loved one I have lost. I can still remember the day. It was a Sunday. We just got out of church. My mom has some voice messages. She checks them. The tears start to flow. My grandpa died. He was in his mid 60’s. He had some health problems but nothing more than your average 60 year old. He was perfectly living life as normal hours before his death. He even made plans with my Grandma to eat dinner at the Home Town Buffet. But he laid down to never wake again. He closed his eyes to never open them again.
My Grandpa was so precious to me. He was so kind and loving to me. He had a profound impact on me. Life did not go on as usual when he died. Things changed. The one I so dearly loved departed. I was disillusioned. I wanted time to stand still so I could cope. So I could process what was going on. It did not. I had to keep on living. I had to keep on living without him. I cared that he died. I profoundly miss him. I miss spending time with him. I miss his smile.
I hope you will look at such a tragedy in your own life and realize that your death matters. People will miss you when you die. You are The One Who Helps To Set The Sun. People care about you. People care about me. Don’t do something stupid and die prematurely. Life is short enough as it is. And don’t even think about suicide. People care about you. You will cause intense sorrow if you do that. It is the most selfish act one can do. Even when no one seems to care—trust me, someone does. You make someone smile. You make someone laugh. Someone loves you. Life wouldn’t be the same without you.

Afterlife

Yo. From now on I will post a link to the song on YouTube for your listening pleasure. Here you are.

Afterlife

I touched with one
Who made me run
Away from my own soul...
In this world with its
Many illusions
We are moving like mice through a maze

And now I find
What's left behind
Has served to make me whole
Full of doubt, deception, and delusion
Seeking purpose to all earthly days

I search within
Beneath a skin
That bears both pleasure and pain
In a world full of constant confusion
I will not be a par to the craze

In the Afterlife
Will dark be bright?
Will cold be warm?
Will the day have no night?
In the Afterlife?
Will the blind have sight?
In the Afterlife.

Behind closed eyes
Some comfort lies
In knowing the truth never spoken
Through this world with its
Hidden conclusion
We'll keep moving like mice through a maze

In the Afterlife.

Will dark be bright?
Will cold be warm?
Will the day have no night?
In the Afterlife?
Will the blind have sight?
In the Afterlife.

Hey you, out there on the road, doing what you’re told, can you help me? So today we reach a song with a bone crushing opening and lyrics concerning a topic I never think about. You know, the Afterlife is just not relevant. Just joking, as a Christian I think about the Afterlife much. It consumes my thoughts. We will get to my view of the Afterlife a little later. First, what is this song about? It appears to be the words of one pondering the futility of this present life and the “hidden conclusion” of this life. The meaninglessness and pain of this life leaves one thinking there must be more than this world of pain. There must be an Afterlife.

So today, I had my first Jewish Thought and Culture class. It was awesome. The professor rocks my socks and the class seems interesting beyond imagination. I am so stoked to grow in my understanding of Judaism in order to understand them and minister to them better. Also, this class will help me understand the New Testament better since I will be reading the Mishnah, which my prof said is the most important rabbinical work for understanding the New Testament. I am very excited, but it will be a challenging and growing study also. The Orthodox Jews have zeal and faith in God that most Christians do not have. They know the Hebrew Bible much better than we do; they have more reverence than we do; and they probably have a stronger belief and surrender to who God is than we do. So earlier I said I thought about the afterlife a lot. These Jews who are more faithful than me, how do they fit in this whole Afterlife thing? Well, the Bible is crystal clear on the Afterlife. There are two places that people go to—Heaven and Hell. The Bible teaches that Jesus is the only way to Heaven. Jesus said, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” The Apostle Peter said (as recorded in Acts), “And there is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name [besides the name of Jesus] under heaven given among men by which we must be saved.” Any one who does not believe in Jesus Christ will go to hell.

It is very easy to affirm that in a vacuum, knowing you believe in Jesus Christ. But when faced with real people, it becomes harder to believe. It is hard to believe that these super devout Jews will be spending their Afterlife, not in Heaven, but in Hell. But if I am going to be faithful to the Word of God, I must. These Jews devote their life to seeking after God. They seek to live a life that is pleasing to Him and to love others. They believe much truth. But they reject the Truth. They reject the Way. They reject the life. They reject the Lamb that was slain for the sins of the world. They reject Jesus Christ. Paul puts it beautifully in Romans 10, “Brothers, my heart’s desire and prayer to God for them [the Jews] is that they may be saved. For I bear them witness that they have a zeal for God, but not according to knowledge. For, being ignorant of the righteousness of God, and seeking to establish their own, they did not submit to God’s righteousness. For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes.” O, their zeal without knowledge! It is a damning zeal! The only way to Heaven is through the righteousness that comes from believing in Jesus Christ. This seems so harsh and unfair, but it only appears this way because we look at it from a humanistic existential point of view. It is all about God. It is not all about us. God is a holy God. We have sinned against him. He does not owe salvation to us. He would be completely just in damning us to hell. He doesn’t have to pardon anyone because of a certain zeal they have. It is hard to say, but those Jews that don’t believe in Jesus Christ are in rebellion against God. They are unrighteous people who are not seeking after the one true God. They are relying on a righteousness found in someone other than Jesus Christ. They are relying on unrighteous righteousness. They are in the same state I was in before Christ saved me. I find this hard to believe. I believe, help my unbelief!

Light Fuse and Get Away

Light Fuse and Get Away

Would you like to sit and talk to me
about the way things change so
suddenly
when your senses come and the feeling goes?
can you remember feeling much too close?

Stop your hands from shaking
Look at me
Are your senses racing endlessly
tracing
past impressions? So were mine
Have you ever been used
or will this be the first time?

It's come so clear to me
Light fuse and get away
No gain, no pain
It's a fatal game
and the true lose everything

I can see
what trust and loyalty have done for me
falling miles from the mark
with a thirst for revenge
and a dangerous heart

I've tried to wash from memory
feelings of betrayal and the incidents
that plague me since I lost my sense
of innocence

A history of changes now I'm loving
now I'm losing keeps me constantly
in fear of hearing "I can't see where
this is going"

You lie alone with the memory
feeling the ceiling and walls closing
in on
Your Conscience my ally
the guilt your affliction
from preying on praise as you fed
an attention addiction

Someone told me
Light fuse and get away
No gain, no pain
and when it's lust to dust you can
crawl from the wreckage

I can see
what trust and loyalty have done for me
lying bleeding in the dark
with a thirst for revenge
and a dangerous heart

It's come so clear to me
Light fuse and get away
No gain, no pain
It's a fatal game
and the true lose everything
I can see
what trust and loyalty have done for me
falling miles from the mark
with a thirst for revenge
and a dangerous heart

Hello friends. Our song for today is similar to every other Dream Theater song—it is awesome and better than pretty much every other non-Dream Theater song. Yeah. Take that! “Light Fuse and Get Away” has a grooving chorus that just makes you want to move. This song has interesting lyrics. It is about a person being used for sex because the user is afraid of the pain that might accompany commitment. They light the fuse then get away. They want the pleasure but don’t want any pain. In doing this, they hurt their partner and ultimately they do not achieve the gain they want. No pain, no gain. By God’s grace, I have not been used by anyone for sex and I have not used anyone for sex. I cannot relate to this song in that way, but I can relate to the principle this song is based on. But before I get to that, let me give a quick review of my day.

I had class in the morning then went to West Jerusalem. I went to a museum and saw a rather large model of Jerusalem in AD 70. It was legit. I wish the temple was still there today. It would be awesome to see. Also, I was able to see some of the Dead Sea Scrolls, which were awesome. They look ancient and epic. It is awesome to think how important they are and how recently they have been found. I know that still many awesome archaeological finds will be found that will deepen our understanding and trust of the Bible. That rocks. We then walked around West Jerusalem, which feels a lot more like a big city then the Old City. It is awesome and I hope to hang out there much this semester.

Now to the fun stuff. So a principle found within this song is that commitment and love can be painful but that true love and joy cannot be found apart from commitment. I am in Israel studying with like 28 other people. I am going to get close to a lot of the people here. I also am going to hurt and get hurt by some of the people here. Am I going to let my fear of pain close me off to love and happiness? I could talk to people at arm’s distance with a wall of protection about me. I could walk around as a masquerade so that I won’t get hurt. That would hurt me more than anything. I would have a miserable and lonely semester. To go even further, living life like this would result in a lonely and miserable life. Being a lone eagle sucks. It is painful. God created us so that we need people. We are meant to pursue God in a communal environment. God ministers to us primarily through people. If all we have our superficial relationships with people, we are not going to know true love from other human beings, and frankly we are not going to know true love from God. You can’t just remove yourself from people and say I don’t need people; all I need is God. That is straight up unbiblical. Those are the words of a lonely person that is in denial. I know. I have thought those words before. They are dangerous words that will lead us to sin, despair, and utter loneliness. You cannot love God without loving people. The fear of pain will destroy us. It will also cause us to hurt and use people. We will act always to make ourselves feel comfortable; therefore we will act selfishly and at other people’s expenses. I know pain hurts. I have felt pain. It sucks. But pain makes us more like Christ; pain brings us closer to Christ and others. Pain solidifies love. Pain is a part of love. I will choose love and pain over despair and loneliness. I need others. You need others. Take a chance. Be real. Love. You won’t regret it.

The Killing Hand

The Killing Hand

I. The Observance

An Angel's kiss now fallen
Descending scarlet cuts the sky
Faded names left on the wall
Honor the fighting leave life to
die

Remembered is the sacrifice but
No praisal of blood still flowing
Who were the leaders?
What controlled the Killing Hand
that caused this mourning?

Crossing over...

II. Ancient Renewal

Lowered deep into the sea
Being a waits to cleanse his soul
senses weakening time is still
Motionless by stiffening cold

The wheels race back and
Scorch his mind
Travelling all to find the land
Revelation warms a touch
And now he will begin to
Understand

III. The Stray Seed

Extended a view to yesterday
Manifestation for none the same
Walking amidst a frightening still
No sound, no smoke, no scorching
Flames

He is risen...

Sipping his poison the raven sings
Yet another to add more bodies
fallen
King from below
this one controls
the Killing Hand that caused this
mourning

Is it all over?

IV. Thorns

Evil genius this secret plan
Mercy dealt with the losing hand
Will he ever fall?
Can he end it all?
Our savior must make his stand

Only a Prophet of years to come
Wanting mortality I'm all alone
He heard my voice
It was my choice
I've stopped the Killing Hand

V. Exodus

When I go back again
Will it be the same?
I've stopped the cries
But now they know my name

The sea is calling me
my spirit must return
As I get closer,
was it really worth
what I have learned?

I'm in the valley
And the saddened chimes I hear
Race towards the wall to find
one more name appears

No one is left now
my one and only land
I laugh at what I've done
I am the Killing Hand

What is up! This song is pure domination. The lyrics are incredible and the music is even better. It is basically about a guy who hears of a crazy massacre and goes back in time and witnesses the event and kills the Killing Hand, and then he realizes he was the Killing Hand and he killed himself. This song shows us how oblivious we can be to the evil we commit and the great damage it can do to us. We must be continually remembering our great inclination to evil and not be blind to the evil we can commit or some day it may be too late and we will have ruined or destroyed our own life.

Today I went to Jerusalem and saw some Biblical sites (especially pertaining to the Old Testament) Among other things, I saw part of the wall that King Hezekiah built, walked through Hezekiah’s Tunnel, went to the City of David, saw tombs of the Kings of Judah, and went to the Pools of Siloam where Jesus had a man wash His eyes and be healed. We also went to a Catholic Cemetery, which had a good view of Southern Jerusalem. There we had a good view of the Hinnom Valley. My professor then had someone read Jeremiah 7:30-32 which mentions the destruction that will take place in that Valley because of the evil committed there. In 586 B.C., God used the Babylonians to destroy Jerusalem and this prophecy and many others were fulfilled. God punished the Israelites for this evil and the many other evils they committed. So, I was thinking earlier, “Wow, this goes perfect with ‘The Killing Hand’. God is the Killing Hand. This will go great for my blog!” Then I read what this song was about and realized it did not work. I realized something else. The Jews are the Killing Hand. Though, God punished them through the Babylonians, the Jews ultimately killed themselves. They committed suicide. They rebelled against the Holy and Sovereign God who loves them. They turned away from the perfect eternal, living God and turned to lifeless, finite gods. They turned from the perfect law that leads to life to depraved sin that leads to death. And it was not like they were not warned. The prophets warned them time after time, but they would not listen. They even persecuted the prophets. Cutting their own throat felt so good; they just could not stop. They may have realized the error of their ways when the Babylonians came and destroyed the city; but it was too late. They had reached the point of no return and were destroyed for their unrepentance. Suicide seemed so much sweeter than life and they payed a big price for it.

Evil blinds us to evil. The more we sin; the blinder we become to the sinfulness of sin. We become numb to it and sink further into depravity; we sink further into suicide. We lose sight of what is good and it becomes very hard for us to turn from our sin. We spurn rebuke and instruction. We know our sin is good and it leads to happiness. We become blind to the evil it is causing us for so long. Then we finally begin to see the error of our ways; but it is too late. We are already dead. I urge you and I urge myself, turn away from your sin. There will be consequences for it. Even believers are not free from the temporal consequences of sin. Flee from your sin. Flee to God.

“Yet even now,” declares the LORD,

“Return to me with all your heart,

With fasting, with weeping, and with mourning;

And rend your hearts and not your garment.”

Return to the LORD, your God,

For he is gracious and merciful,

Slow to anger, and abounding in

Steadfast love;

And he relents over disaster.

Joel 2:12,13

Ytse Jam

Ytse Jam

(Instrumental)

Hello everybody. So today we have hit Dream Theater’s first instrumental track, which is amazing. I think the fact that it is on their first album makes it even better. It takes talent to make an awesome instrumental track and Dream Theater has it even in the beginning. This track is of special importance because of its name. The original name of Dream Theater was Majesty. They changed the name because there was already another band named Majesty. The name of this track is named after Majesty. It is Majesty spelled backwards. I must admit it is a pretty majestic song. Take a listen. You won’t regret it.

So today I attended my first Shabbat service in Israel. It was an awesome service. It started off with music. The singing was in Hebrew, but there was a power point with the words in Hebrew, Romanized English, and an English translation at the bottom. The musical style was contemporary. Next, there was scripture reading, and then there was prayer, which was open, but done in an orderly manner. Then, there was the preaching of the word. Bill Schlegel preached. He is pretty much in charge of the IBEX (Israel Bible Extension) group. He preached on Proverbs 5, which explains the folly of adultery and the wisdom of sex within the context of marriage. He was describing the fact that the adulteress is enticing but going into her leads to death. To bring that point home he quoted the adage, “Not all that glitters is gold.” This point hit me. There is just something about the forbidden that excites us. We want to do what we are not supposed to do. You may have the most beautiful wife ever, but there is just something exciting and exhilarating about having a secret lover; of living a secret life. Though the woman and the act of committing adultery seems like it would bring happiness and joy and an adventure, it just doesn’t deliver. It delivers shame, guilt, misery, broken families, and depravity. It delivers death. The sad thing is so many people inside and outside the church are adulterers. They vowed faithfulness to their spouse, but they just could not say no to the temptress; they could not say no to forbidden desire. Even more so, there are so many that commit adultery in the mind. Jesus says, “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall not commit adultery’; but I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lust for her has already committed adultery with her in his heart.” So many of us have disgusting forbidden fantasies in our minds. We may never go into anyone other then our wife, but in our mind we are the worst of adulterers. That is me. I have committed adulteries I am so ashamed of in my mind. So disgusting. So vile.

Now let’s stop talking about sin. Let’s talk about Majesty. I may say Ytse Jam is majestic but there is only one who is truly Majestic and that is Jesus Christ. He is the one and only King and Sovereign. He is so amazing and awesome. His majesty is shown in His grace. The ruler of the universe came down to earth to save sinners. God condescended to earth to save adulterers. Jesus took our adultery; our forbidden pleasure upon himself on the cross; and God, the Father punished him for that sin (and every other sin that was layed upon Him). He was punished and murdered for our sake. But because He is Majesty, death could not keep Him. He conquered sin and death for His people on the cross. Those who put their faith in Christ are forgiven and declared blameless because of what Christ did. They are clothed with Christ’s perfection. Though, we may still seem disgusting and still have our flesh that wants to sin, we have Christ’s righteousness, therefore, God no longer has wrath for us. He showers only His grace on us. He is working out all for our good and He will never leave nor forsake us. He loves us with no conditions whatsoever. Turn from your sin and turn to Jesus Christ, trusting in Him alone for your salvation, and you will be saved. Jesus truly is Majesty.